here comes goodbye...there it went...

i miss him more every single day i don't get to see his smile, feel his kiss, or hear him laugh.

saying goodbye was pathetically hard. i cried, of course. as i was walking away after saying goodbye, i realized josh forgot to give me his dogtags. i immediately sprinted through the whole security line and yelled, "josh!!!". when i got to him, he was waiting to put them on me, and then gave me the sweetest kiss he has ever given me. i turned to run back and said i love you, and he said it back.

my biggest regret from that day is not blowing him a kiss and him not blowing me one back like we always do. i cried alot because of that. it's our thing. he was nervous, and i was sad. i hope he's okay. i write to him everyday in the journal he gave me. i'll see him again soon. 24 days.

i love you, josh.