still engaged.

yes, we are still engaged. don't ask how the plans are coming. seriously, don't.
anyway, this post is basically just proving that we are still alive, and indeed, engaged.

I WANNA GET MARRIED ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!

sneak peak.

okay, two posts in one day...in twenty minutes....makes up for a long neglect. anyway, here is a sneak peak of my wedding dress! i absolutely LOVE it!

love like ours.

noone has a love like ours. i like to think that, anyway. only 79 days left of being engaged. which sucks. did i mention that? still sucks. totally sucks.

being engaged sucks.

no really, it does. you think it's going to be all happy and all about you and your fiance, but let me rain on your parade for a second...
IT'S. NOT. ABOUT. YOU. okay, that's a slight exaggeration, but only slight. because my parents are paying for this wedding, it's "their" wedding. this is what i've decided...as long as josh and i are married by the end of the day, i don't really care what happens.
the wedding has turned into an extremely formal dinner which has cut down our list to about 300. if you think that's alot, you have no idea. let's just say................i want to be married...............NOW. no, yesterday.

on the other hand, and in better news, i am looking to buy a baby bulldog. yes, yes i am. we am going to name her dolly, and if it's a boy, we're going to name him tobey.

here's a video:
MY BABY GIRL!!!

anyway, stop being jealous, and start feeling bad for me because being engaged is the WORST!!

a long time coming...

Here's how "it" all happened. Not that it! Geeze.


November 17, 2011: the first day I noticed Josh (as in; holy cow, how did i let HIM slip through the cracks?!!), and the first day he got up the courage to talk to me. It was at the PFA (fitness test for Air Force) which takes place in the west stadium parking lot of lavell edwards stadium. Josh and I run there on a regular basis.

August 9, 2012: Josh picks me up in the morning upon returning from my trip to England. I was COMPLETELY jet-lagged, and even more tired from a long day of work. I had mentioned to Josh that I wanted to go on a run because I need to get back in shape for Air Force. It was about 10 pm, which was really 5 am for me, and Josh reminded me that we needed to run. I told him that I was too tired and we could go in the morning. He insisted and I complained, but only a little.

Anyway, we got to the stadium parking lot and he parked next to the exact spot where we first "met". As I was waiting for him to put his running shoes on, I laid down on the pavement. When he was finished, he picked me up and we walked to the start line. He had his shirt and keys sitting on top of a garbage can under the only light post in the parking lot. I told him to move that stuff into the car or at least out of the light so nobody would steal it. He shrugged it off and said it would be fine and started walking away. I followed him thinking nothing of it except that it was disgusting that he left his stuff on the garbage can. We ran together until we reached the last stretch of our first lap. He looked over to me and told me that he was going to do something, but I couldn't really hear him because I was listening to music. I watched him sprint away from me and thankfully he started to move his things to another spot OFF the garbage can.

I finally got over to where he was and was messing with my music when he came over and gave me a hug. He asked me, "Baby, do you love me?" and I said, "Yes, i do!", "How much?" "More than anything!".....THEN......he backed up and got on one knee. I gasped and covered my eyes because I couldn't believe it was really happening. I peeked through my hands and saw him on one knee with that adorable huge smile on his face. He then said, "This is where it all started, and this is where I want it to all start again!". I kept saying things like, "ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! IS THIS A JOKE?! OH MY GOSH, OH MY GOSH, OH MY GOSH!!!!!", and he then he said, "Will you marry me?". I was having a little heart attack....five times in a row.....so I physically could not say anything but, "OH MY GOSH!!!!!".
.He stood up and sort of hugged me and said, "Baby, are you going to say yes?!" and then I immediately said "Yes!". He said, "Can I put the ring on?! Look at it!" and I told him I couldn't even look at it because I was still having a slight....okay, major....freakout! haha Anyway, he said, "I'm putting this on your finger!!!!!!!" so he grabbed my hand and put it on my finger so sweetly! We then stood in the parking lot and yelled out, "I'M ENGAGED!!".

Well, you get the idea. happily ever after, yadda yadda yadda. Just kidding. I really am so excited and can't wait to marry Josh! Pictures to come!

officially mr. and mrs. bryant. almost...

we're engaged. appropriate enough considering this blog is meant to be for our life after marriage. one step at a time, i guess. couldn't be happier. i'm the luckiest girl in the whole wide world.

here comes goodbye...there it went...

i miss him more every single day i don't get to see his smile, feel his kiss, or hear him laugh.

saying goodbye was pathetically hard. i cried, of course. as i was walking away after saying goodbye, i realized josh forgot to give me his dogtags. i immediately sprinted through the whole security line and yelled, "josh!!!". when i got to him, he was waiting to put them on me, and then gave me the sweetest kiss he has ever given me. i turned to run back and said i love you, and he said it back.

my biggest regret from that day is not blowing him a kiss and him not blowing me one back like we always do. i cried alot because of that. it's our thing. he was nervous, and i was sad. i hope he's okay. i write to him everyday in the journal he gave me. i'll see him again soon. 24 days.

i love you, josh.

thank you, miley cyrus.

today, i like miley cyrus. why? she is engaged at 19. sweet. once my mom sees that she won't be able to hold my age against me anymore!

LETS DO THIS! just kidding. but seriously......................................

i'm sorry.

josh, i know you might see this face all too often lately...but just know....i love you...and hopefully soon, you will be seeing more of this face...

meaty.

this is our puppy. he looks sassy, eh?! and yes...his name is meaty. just be glad i didn't give in to josh's suggestions of "dd"....as in....double d. yeah. okay, so he might not exist yet, but he will....soon.

two of a kind.

josh is my boo. i am his avb. we are two of a kind. he was probably made just for me, and i for him. i have these crazy thoughts about one of us dying, and as morbid as that sounds, i know that if i were to go through something extremely difficult, josh would be right there by my side, no doubt in my mind. i am a lucky girl. i love my boo.

always there.

josh is always there when i need him. always. and if he's not, he makes it up to me.

bravery and sacrifice.

i'd say i'm pretty brave. josh is pretty scary.

"hey crazy, what's up?"

dear cadet bryant, i have a crush on you. love, cadet humphries. xoxo

i like quotes.

one smile. november 17, 2011. that's when i knew.

i'm a lucky girl.

i love love.

josh's favorite thing about me is my smile. he loves me for me..and if you know me, then you know that this guy has a large heart and aloooooot of patience! i love him.

this is his favorite smile, and he will do anything to get this out of me even if it takes a minute straight of tickling me. i'll still keep him, anyway.

butterflies.

ya know that feeling you get when you see him staring at you? or that feeling you get when he kisses your cheek, or hugs you from behind? i think they call that feeling "butterflies". i also think that means i have a crush. maybe just a little one...but more like a very large one...like...a crush that isn't going away...

one more day...

i wouldn't mind spending one more day seeing your smile... one more day laughing together... one more day saying and hearing "i love you"... one more day feeling your arms around me... one more day kissing your smile... one more day cherishing every moment i get to spend with you... one more day being your avb.

i love you, joshua. let's spend one more day, everyday, for the rest of all our days.

charly.

charly is the dumbest movie i've ever seen. we watched it last night aaaaaand of course, i cried. i mostly only cried because i started thinking about how it would be if i were to lose josh. that stupid movie made me realize that josh is my soul-mate. i mean, of course i knew that, and to be honest i don't even believe in soul-mates. josh and i are two of a kind. we are perfect for each other, but by no means perfect on our own. i know that josh would be right by my side if i were to face something as devastating as cancer. i also know that i can only see josh by my side while i'm in labor, or even just sitting in church. i can only see josh making me happy for the rest of my life.

bryant boys

josh looks like he could be their dad. he could be matt's dad. he will be a good dad. really good dad.

zach bryant's greatest quote.

"a.v., aren't you glad josh is good with his hands?"

the beginning.

cadet meets cadet... country boy meets country girl... runner meets singer... november 18, 2011, forever meets for always... country boy still has to ask country girl to marry him...